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New Prescription To Stop Cough
Started Monday night: July 27, 2009 on table and capsule: 10st DEXAMETHASON 4 MG TABLET
OMEPRAZOL 20 MG
ONE EACH A DAY
NEW DOSE:
STARTED MILD COUGHING SPELL AT 8 AM.
TOOK ONE OMEPRAZOL AND ONE DEXAMETHASON
I went to bed without a cough. This never happened before in all these month. I woke this morning early with no cough. No trouble sleeping. Bed at 1 AM and up at just before 8 AM.
What I did go through last night after the pill and all night is enough sweat to make the …

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Strephon’s Sense Of Present Well-being
I woke up from our afternoon nap with a sense of having slept well without being groggy.
This sense of well-being though also has with it the coughing bouts in the day, and managed by some of the light medications. Light? Hopefully!
Sorry to inflict my cancer and aging suffering onto you in this blog, but this is a purpose of my having the blog.
To help me face this present dark side of life destiny point I use the blog to publish what is happening to me and …

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Dream – Returning Home
Issues: … travel anxiety … the kind of journey life is … live beyond fear, not in it … aloneness … where is home? …
What a rough night! I few coughing spells I think, with Stefania staying awake to guard me and ground me when I start coughing. What a guardian angel! it feels like in the night.
I woke at 6 AM this morning after getting to bed originally just before midnight.
Woke with the images that I was traveling home by bus now with some others. We …

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Logical Fallacy #23 Fake Or Real?
Issues: … logic …clear thinking … logical fallacies … true or false … deception … making decisions ….

Yes, how do you tell the fake from the real, if you do? I recently contacted a new alternative therapist trained as a nurse but doing alternative. I questioned her especially on using the declared fraudulent Quantum Biofeedback machine now under a different name: SCIO.

The alternative therapist argued to my declaration that the critics had called the machine a fraud and the one selling it an escapee …

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The Worst Coughing Attack Yet From Lung Cancer
I write this right after the attack. I am watching the CNN news with more protests in Iran, but suddenly I am coughing violently, so violently my throat, neck, jaws seem to lock up at that stress tight point just before a cough.

But what if the cough doesn’t come and I can’t breathe?

It felt with such great tension just like the strain of vomiting. Was I trying to get rid of something down the trachea, the larynx, the breathing tube? I let go …

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Depression Limbo Over Strephon
I woke up this morning early 7:15 AM, if not an optimist at least not weighed down with ‘nothing to live for.’
I went through limbo. I also write now because Regan reminded that I owe it to those who follow me on this blog-good point. The relationship is two-way.
Changes

I have no one criticizing me or being negative towards me now.
My symptoms are not worse. I still have big coughing fits sometimes in the day but feel I am limiting them with natural tablets and stronger …

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Waking In Limbo – What A Horrible State!
Issues: … coping … motivation lack … vacations … taking charge … games people play … happy? … unhappy? … fun? ….
Just visited my cancer specialist doctor today, then home after eating a nice sandwich. Then a nap I just woke from. I woke into limbo. What does this mean? I woke into my bodily self?

Which is more depressing? Waking into ones cancer self or into limbo?
What is limbo?
Trust me, you don’t want to be there. Maybe you know this already?

Mine …

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The Real Me And The Cancer Me
Issues: … cancer me … real me … boredom … self … daily life ….

I am just realizing right now that I am trying to make the distinction between the real me and the cancer me, or is this the aging me or the dying me?The point is differentiation.

It’s been kind of a boring day.
What makes a day boring for you, for me?

I had this problem in my early twenties. I had plenty of energy. I existed. I worked to earn …