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Report On New Alternative Treatment Practitioner Aug 5

I keep these reports to have a detailed record of my cancer and its treatment and whatever happens.

The latest I went to first session with Anne-Marie Bakker whose appointment lag is a month, a good sign.We were active with each other. She gave me herbal and homeopathic remedies according to using an acu-points machine to diagnose only. She uses the Quantum Biofeedback machine on others as part of diagnosis and maybe treatment but I had already challenged her not to use it with …

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Talk To Me Please Says Strephon
Once when I was dating Carolyn Wread, now Frimkiss probably, years ago when I was twenty, I was including within their family. The father was a warm guy, what was his name? Spenser? His wife, what was her name, (blank) was dying of cancer. I went and visited her in the hospital. She was very thin. We just looked at each other for a few minutes and then I left. I visited her one more time. The Great Blankness stood between us. I carried this …

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What Makes For A Strong Character Or Personality?
Issues: … identity … will power …. achievement … failure … purpose in life … talents and abilities … living your day with focus … cancer person … cancer victim …
In reading over true stories of cancer remission, where the tumor essentially goes away, a common thread seems to be that the cancer victim does not give in to being a victim, nor do those who maintain contact with the cancer person treat the person as a cancer victim.
I deduct from this, as …

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Strephon’s Cancer Health Report August 1, 2009
Up at almost six AM today after going to bed before 12 midnight.
I actually feel pretty good. Woke up three times to pee but that usually happens. The point is that I can go back to sleep now and couldn’t before.
I may actually be getting better, but it’s difficult to separate out hope from reality.
I don’t feel depressed and in grief, as if I am going to die very soon. I don’t have much coughing at all and spitting of sputum.
Strange, the strong medication …

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Strephon I Am Affirmations
I am Strephon Williams
I am a consciousness
I live in a body now under stress
I am still the same person I was
My body is not the same body it was
I have cancer living in me
I have a great big tumor in my right lung
I am Strephon
I am having troubles
I feel like I am just coping
I feel like I have no where to turn to
I am learning how to get help from doctors
I am learning I have to do a lot for myself
Doctors are scarce
The country does not make …

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Report – A Real Pray-To-God-Crisis Here
The last couple of days have been like hell with the switch in medication, the two days of a strong pill which I took myself off of yesterday. Had two huge night sweats sleeping, soaking the bed. And the slight wooziness, the dizziness if I moved abruptly or fast.

We hope and wait and I deal with a dying feeling in my awareness and a little in my body. I have to interpret this new experience, of course, and keep it real, as does my partner …

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The Face Of A Dying Man
Do you see here the face of a dying man? I do, because this is me. I have been diagnosed from x-rays and scans to have a large lung tumor, am taking strong medication and suffering strong symptoms, but have not taken any but a little chemo therapy of what the doctors want me to take, such as surgery and radiation.
But I am a psychologist also and here’s what I read. Can you separate out what might be projection and what might be real?

Is this …

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“The moths keep coming … I still say I want to live …”