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Cancer Report Strephon August 20, 2009
Issues: … control of symptoms … medications … fears …. positive spirit … sleep hours … diet interventions … check with doctor … daily living context …
This report reports current condition of my mental and body and daily living context.
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At 12 midnight went to bed taking sleeping pill. Stefania insisted because the previous night I stayed up later than her, took sleeping pill but stayed at the computer and half an hour later was sleep at computer, deep, groggy, and she had to work hard …

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I’m So Happy
I am just reporting my present state, but this is how it feels!
My medications were taken over 8 hours ago so maybe this is not euphoria from that.
Truth told I have been working hard again on my attitudes towards myself and the cancer diagnosis, and now that I don’t have to be dominated by the chest discomfort and lack of sleep I can face myself much better psychologically and physically.
Stefania is over at the new place stripping the walls with the help of her supervisor from work and …

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Strephon’s Spiritual Tasks
Spiritual is to me value practices and principles to practice by my ego to guide its own desires and need fulfillment.
«make as few demands as possible
«focus on a center greater than my own awareness
«keep consciously processing my inner and outer experiences
«showing caring and understanding to my health care providers
«be real in expressing myself and my issues
«relax into the now as much as possible without undue focus on goals and happenings in the days to come
­«don’t let craziness take over of unconscious fears
«develop more focus on the Greater Source, …

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The Face Of A Dying Man
Do you see here the face of a dying man? I do, because this is me. I have been diagnosed from x-rays and scans to have a large lung tumor, am taking strong medication and suffering strong symptoms, but have not taken any but a little chemo therapy of what the doctors want me to take, such as surgery and radiation.
But I am a psychologist also and here’s what I read. Can you separate out what might be projection and what might be real?

Is this …

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“I’m Pretty Good At The Sex”
Yes, someone said this today on Huffington Post. It’s not him I focus on but the attitude.
The Huffington Post brings life, and its readers deal with that life. I am dealing with it here.
I point to the attitude, not the person.
Any of us can be at fault when we make sex a performance issue, and we will be doing the same to our partners.

Sex has no built-in performance scales.

Sex is an experience, not a pot of gold.

First say this catechism by repeating any five sayings …

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Little Dialogue With A Phone Invader

The phone rings. Fortunately I am not writing at the moment.I lift the phone: hello
Hello and a bunch of Dutch comes over.
Are you an advertising executive, I ask.
Yes, I am, she says, switching to English.
Are you sure you have the right country?
No answer in the moment.
We are very poor here, I say. Could you please send us 100 euro? We need it very badly …
Ok, says she. I know, I know, and the conversation ends.

This is a new approach I haven’t used before. Partner …

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Waking In Limbo – What A Horrible State!
Issues: … coping … motivation lack … vacations … taking charge … games people play … happy? … unhappy? … fun? ….
Just visited my cancer specialist doctor today, then home after eating a nice sandwich. Then a nap I just woke from. I woke into limbo. What does this mean? I woke into my bodily self?

Which is more depressing? Waking into ones cancer self or into limbo?
What is limbo?
Trust me, you don’t want to be there. Maybe you know this already?

Mine …

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Whose Life Are We Living-And Why The Answer Makes All The Difference?
Issues: … fundamental honesty … not being fooled … perceiving reality … being effective … fulfilling expectations? … living from the core ….

The answer to the question makes all the difference because you and I can waste our precious lives and energy following false premises about ourselves.

Some of you don’t want to be conscious even of who you are and what you are doing right now. At one early point in adult life I didn’t.

But I had …