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Strephon passed away yesterday evening(October 22, 2009) at 19.00, Netherlands time.
I take my time to be in these moments, but please leave your comments, if you feel like.
Stefania

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In Strephon’s behave I write to all of you, who followed daily his sharing and experience of being. This night at 2 o’clock he was breathing difficultly saying “I am ready to go. Call the doctors.”
He is not gone yet from among us, but he is getting support/injection of morphine to  sleep easily as he wished, that making it easier on his breathing.
I hope I will get the strength and energy to tell you exact the moment he will be gone.
Stefania

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Went Through Painful And Exhausting Getting Up Process This Oct 18-19 2009 Report

18 Oct taking care of myself alone in morning but exhausted me for afternoon.
19 Oct Strephon decides to take day and night off from computer and lie in bed absorbing nature through window and doing a lot of sleeping, which I did but produced back pains to deal with, finally coming to computer at 5 AM to now use the computer chair for alternative place to bed even if doing nothing but see dawn rise, get my chicken …

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Doctor Came Today Oct 9 2009
She said I am a little better than when she first came three days ago.
Yet what inflamed me to say when she was leaving is: I’m not giving up!.
Dr M had said to me, we have to be realists, as she looked at my enema legs and feet and changed medication dosages.
I said one day at a time. Today it was better than before. I can breathe again, not pant most of the time. That for her was good also. She checked with the stethoscope …

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What Is Cancer? September 20 2009
To bed at 11:20 and up at 5:30.
What is cancer?
I can only be intuitive here since I have symptoms of cancer that I and the doctors are dealing with. Here are the possibilities as of now that I have been experiencing.
Cancer is a great big tumor showing up in x-rays, growing to the extent of taking lung tissue away from its natural breathing and oxygenating function in my 75 year old body.
Cancer is something needing to be controlled in my body or its constrcting ability …

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The Incredible Sadness Contrasted With Consciousness
How do you write about sadness?
It’s such an incredible feeling. I must try and be strong in it, but the sensation is so bodily now it seems to permeate my whole being.
Of course it is so personal also.
Saying goodbye to Stefania. And how do you do that? You cry. We had a moment last night in which I said we both knew this was going to be part of our relationship, its ending because of our big age difference. She stopped eating and said, ‘I …

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Cancer Crisis Pains Sept 18, 2009 Marriage Strategy
I have pains in my back. I thought I was sleeping well last night, like I might even be getting better, but it seems the contrary is true. They may send me to the hospital today for what? Relief?
I wanted the homeopathy to start in earnest at the new Steiner clinic. Now what is going go?
So will they dope me up with stuff? Will they find a spread of the disease?
What can I endure? What cannot I endure?
One lung blocked says the new …

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The Turning Point – Cancer Or Vital, Purposeful Life?
Issues: … cancer curing … real cure … living life choice … increasing vitality by increasing purpose … end the negativity … God in experience … living now as real …
Woke up clear at 2:30 AM, meaning 2.5 hours of sleep, the usual first cycle for me now.

I feel like the turning point against this cancer is being reached, even without knowing why or for sure.

Night Dream
In the dream two of the defeated Germans of the Second World War were sitting while …