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Went Through Painful And Exhausting Getting Up Process This Oct 18-19 2009 Report

18 Oct taking care of myself alone in morning but exhausted me for afternoon.

19 Oct Strephon decides to take day and night off from computer and lie in bed absorbing nature through window and doing a lot of sleeping, which I did but produced back pains to deal with, finally coming to computer at 5 AM to now use the computer chair for alternative place to bed even if doing nothing but see dawn rise, get my chicken soup to give me needed food energy. Got last soup early. God S’s last 50 euro for Kim to buy stuff, still waiting the last moving money. A cruel place in the process. The rental people refused to give us even a little advance like 100, even when pleated with. Real cruel.

-I did this by myself and Kim called in by me and Stefania to help out second part of day to assist me, which led to several relationship challenges to me that I had to respond to. We needed to do this and I felt better that we did. It’s a gift to each of us to give each other a more healed relationship between us as I go through my dying process here.

19 Oct Strephon decides to take day and night off from computer and lie in bed absorbing nature through window and doing a lot of sleeping and doing some of the Jeremy spiritual practices for the energy system and reinforcing the life force, which I did but produced back pains to deal with, finally coming to computer at 5 AM to now use the computer chair for alternative place to bed even if doing nothing but see dawn rise, get my chicken soup to give me needed food energy. Got last soup early. God S’s last 50 euro for Kim to buy stuff, still waiting the last moving money. A cruel place in the process. The rental people refused to give us even a little advance like 100, even when pleated with. Real cruel.

Positive Result Treatment Edema Yesterday, Oct 18, 2009.

Kim unwrapped bandanges and behold both legs completely normal in size! Something is working! Everything is working together for this, showing some success.

Overall Perspective and Goals

Could recover to some stability with the various treatments and procedures to reduce stress for me, Stefania, anyone else.

So while rough at time, necessary: Thanks Stefania. Yes, our husband-wife relating causes us stress but not trying to do this but to reduce and be clear on issues and then saying Okay? Resolved?

-Stefania sat on the bed and brought up issue after issue, many we partially cleared and did something about.

-clarifying issues of just getting the care right and the procedures down with help workers, like coming in quietly and not having the front door locked, which Stefania has always been doing which leads to the piercing bell. S goes to fast sometimes.

-sorting out which is a relationship issue and with a service issue is double for Stefania and I and needs to be so. Kim did some good procedures when she came this morning. I am a lot calmer, not panting but breathing because Kim has settled practical things so Steffi doesn’t have to deal with these. Kim’s procedures are now better than S’s.

-however, S and I used yesterday’s time sorting through a lot of relating issues from the past and present so that we develop a real relationship, and so neither of us are stressed out by each other, as well as the support work S does. It went pretty well with the support work from Stefania last night: taking care of my poop chair and urine chair.

-when asked by Kim did she sleep last night, she said No. So S does not quite get the point that the time last night was used for clearing the air on the relationship: get that right also and you will get the release for sleeping in a relaxed way. S has always been a light sleeper.

LESSON TO LEARN TO PRACTICE: Separate personal issues from relationship issues from external crisis issues, and cover them all for more effectiveness rather than making situations worse. This is also consciousness work using clarity, compassion, overcoming ones resistance and the other person’s resistance or negative tendency. Learn as much as you can from the care crisis that is happening. Keep changing yourself, keep adapting, putting the patient first.

-I am starting to pant again. Must post now this.

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