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Strephon’s Agony Page Ongoing

20 October 2009 4 Comments
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Strephon’s Agony Page Ongoing
This is where I put my agonies through the Comments  blocks, and where you can two, but in depth please, or if a one liner support line fine. I don’t necessarily reply back of course. You can see I am deteriorating, which is sad.
-Strephon

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  • Strephon (author) said:

    Current agony is the near constant coughing that seems to come just with help workers and me. Stress level for me to high, but they are learning to be less stressful to me with how they enter the scene and interact. Now less or no hacking with just Stefania and W. are here. I trust their integrity which has been proven to me.

    It’s terrible to be a threat that these others will interrupt and be too strong in presenting their points of view, even gang up on me with two people to protect themselves and dominate me. Happened to me today by doctor and nurse, but I was able to not give in to it but still stated my case. And gave the Dr. that I had changed my own attitude to more balanced help with support people and working on my own to stay strong where I could without hurting myself. “A soul shift” said the house doctor.

    Something really good has happened today with a large donation to help us meet costs but to also try and get video recording software set up to record, and it helps buy food that goes down my throat. Buy special booties or socks also. Thanks again Doner. Need good firm computer chair for Stefania who has not firm computer chair yet to sit on so she can relieve her back and be supported for work at computer, with all the bending and other tasks she has to do in keeping getting our place ready. She and W. are getting her room ready so she can sleep there and get a good nights sleep as the overnight observers come in to observe me without interfering with me if at all possible. All these things count to give me a peaceful environment, low stress environment so I get over the heavy stress produced, like Dr. and nurse coming down on me both at once with their challenges to me, even vailed threats to drop me as their case. Of course this is why E. B. has more cancer cases. She is optimistic, but she had too many cancer patients so she refused me at the beginning and sent me to this other doctor.

    Well, if you can’t change them neutralize them!

    An agony is being in the wrong hands and being afraid of dying from negative attitudes and actions. You come on too strong and they fire you. You come on too weak and they dominate and damage you. The doctor left the empty Iscador syringe on my table instead of throwing it away in the official yellow disposal box so she does not listen either to double check after your work is done. Nor did her nurse check. Too strong against me and not strong enough with herself or her nurse? I see it plainly now but can’t argue the miner points.

    # 20 October 2009 at 5:55 PM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    A feeling agony is the general sadness I feel in having to leave my life on earth right now, including Stefania, some upfinished projects and this bad spell of going through personal deterioration like this.

    Losing The Battle like this in angony. Even if I win a reprieve through things like the Iscador treatment, or miracle, the most likely death is death by cancer now. I go along with doctor’s diagnosis just to stabilize things. Okay, we can play that game also, can’t we? If the doctor’s way is not working then it is not working, which has happened to other cancer remissions. Just stay as positive as possible with Iscador, while allowing cancer doctors their opinion.

    The new positive is: as all kinds of medicine and technology develops, all of you out there should have better treatment options than I have today. This includes better psychological treatment from reading my realistic Cancer Book. Get your doctors to read this actual realistic report of what really happens in cancer treatment and the the cure of souls happening now.

    CANCER BOOK: CANCER TREATMENT AND THE CURE OF SOULS

    – A REALISTIC FULL REPORT OF A PSYCHOLOGIST REPORTING HIS DYING FROM CANCER PROCESS AS HE IS ACTUALLY DYING, FIRST REPORTED IN HIS STREPHON SAYS BLOG AND THEN COLLECTED IN A BOOK.

    # 20 October 2009 at 7:11 PM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    It really hacks up hoggers until we get that big one of slime and then I can settle in for the night. Tonight to meet then new observer.

    # 20 October 2009 at 9:52 PM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    We also have our first Voluteer to observe me through the night. I feel weak in my arms but trying to focus on writing part of the night see what happens.

    # 20 October 2009 at 10:30 PM

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