“Strephon - I understand your feelings about modern medicine and cancer. I, of course, agree with you. [...] I would not have surgery, radiation or chemo, either. [...]
My cousin just died of lung cancer a few weeks ago, after having one lung removed about two years ago. But she was also older than either of us.
Juice fast sounds a good step. There is a great book: The Grape Cure, by Johanna Brandt. I read it years ago and was convinced. She was a South African, I think, Naturopath. Her diet is simple - NOTHING but organic grapes and grape juice. All you want. You loose a lot of weight and strange things come out of the body as it rids itself of the cancer. She argues that the particular components of grapes cut off the nutrition to the cancer cells and nourish the rest of the body and build the strength to fight off cancer and to heal naturally. She describes cases and the course of healing in detail. I just looked it up on Amazon and I see some others have written about her cure, also. Well, we now know the power of grape antioxidants, so I know I would definitely do it. OH, the vitamin C - I have been reading about it, and it seems some doctors think that you should super saturate on it for cancer, 8 and more grams a day. You take as much as you can without getting diarrhea. Enough on suggestions re treatment.
Your dream is fascinating. I see your thoughts about attack on the body. But I wonder also if the positive challenge is to embrace the masculine. For a man as sensitive as you, this seems a life task.
It is inspiring to see a person, you, take on the challenge of a life threatening disease with seeming acceptance. Anger and self-pity seem far more common, along with denial in all of its forms.
Reinhold Nieburh's prayer comes to mind:
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference.