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Doctor Came Today Oct 9 2009

She said I am a little better than when she first came three days ago.

Yet what inflamed me to say when she was leaving is: I’m not giving up!.

Dr M had said to me, we have to be realists, as she looked at my enema legs and feet and changed medication dosages.

I said one day at a time. Today it was better than before. I can breathe again, not pant most of the time. That for her was good also. She checked with the stethoscope from the back.

I’m not sure she believes in the Iscador treatment.

Another position for doctors to take is to believe in the possibility of recovery or slowing down or stopping the cancer growth.

Let’s be realistic, she says.

What is realistic, coming from a doctor or coming from me?

The doctor says, prepare for death. You are in a dying process. She is making sure all parts of the health care team are going into place. including rest and help time for Stefania.

Of course most cancer survivors who go through remission of their cancer say their doctors are surprised.

I feel upset and angry that the doctor takes this ‘I’m dying’ position.

Will I get well again?

Is it because I have been a psychologist with openness to everyone getting well and the greater source coming in, as well as finding the key to the problem?

I told Stefania it made me feel depressed a bit but I wasn’t going into breakdown feelings but it did depress me. Today is the day they brought me this wonderful adjustable hospital bed but that image depressed me as well. Yet the practical reality is that this stuff makes it much more easier to move about or go to sleep or whatever and that makes me glad.

Getting into heavier issues, like is there life after death? not the time for that yet.

  • The doctor noted I was changed for the better. That’s enough for now!

I don’t like movies of people hitting and killing each other now. I like dramas of overcoming difficulties and intelligent romances like Three Weddings and a Funeral.

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  • Arthur B. Treadway said:

    Hi Strephon,

    Haven’t been to the computer for several days, because I’ve been in bed with a bad cold; just get up to eat and nothing more. So I hadn’t read the last few days of your blog entries.

    So the Dr. today said you looked better than three days ago. You felt better than three days ago, too. At least that is my guess. Your blog entries are suggesting you are getting into better spirits. Maybe it’s the mistletoe, maybe it’s something else. Whatever it is, it is hopeful and good to read.

    It is evident that you are trying to apply to yourself much that you had learned to apply to others and that seems to be working. At the same time you do not give up living, you have not given up learning. You are finding out a lot about cancer, both from your outer research and from your own laboratory of yourself. And you are writing it down. That makes for good and useful reading, at least for me.

    So you’ve got your walker and your adjustable bed and you feel glad to have those mechanical helpers. I am too. Yes, do all for yourself that you actually can, even if you find it is much more difficult than it used to be, but then ask for help when you really need it. You are right about all of that, I’m sure.

    Angels? I used to wonder if they existed. Then I met one and it took me awhile to recognize she was/is an angel. (Yes, the first two I met were women, but I’ve also know men angels. I don’t believe angels are sexless, either.) And that made it possible for me to meet and recognize other angels. Angels are very real, though pseudo-religion has fed us all kinds of BS about them having no sex or having wings or what have you. Yeah, I know several and they’re very real. I don’t know if they all have to go through a real near-death experience to become angels. I doubt that. But who knows? I’ve had several near-death experiences, but I don’t think I’m a full-time angel. I’m pretty sure there are many angels that don’t realize they are angels.

    You wrote about people after near-death experiences not any longer being the owners of their lives. I don’t think that anyone is the owner of their life. I know I just live mine but don’t own it. Maybe the thing is that, after a near-death experience, one’s ego might let go of the crazy belief that it owns the life.

    Keep living and keep writing, my friend, just as long as you can, just as long as the spirit moves you,
    Arthur

    # 9 October 2009 at 9:37 PM
  • Rachael said:

    Strephon, Yes, take one day at a time, keep your spirits up. I have seen many times, many doctors surprised by the sheer will power of another and the results it creates. The power of the connection between your inner source and yourself can accomplish GREAT things. The most powerful words I feel from you yet.”I’m not giving up”! I can feel the fire down deep from which this came. Reality, yes we all have to accept it, but who says it is not there to envoke power, and what you just said to create the difference you need. I can accept reality, yet I have also seen many amazing feets accomplished by ones power from within. Keep it up my friend. :)

    Best of energy, Rachael

    # 9 October 2009 at 10:18 PM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    Strephon Responds

    —STREPHON—
    Difficulty at the moment getting my fingers right on the keyboard, so I excerpt here what I most repond to with each of you. Thanks for these heart moments of understanding and connecting!

    —RACHAEL—
    The most powerful words I feel from you yet. ”I’m not giving up”! I can feel the fire down deep from which this came. Reality, yes we all have to accept it, but who says it is not there to evoke power, and what you just said to create the difference you need. I can accept reality, yet I have also seen many amazing feats accomplished by ones power from within.

    —ARTHUR—
    It is evident that you are trying to apply to yourself much that you had learned to apply to others and that seems to be working. At the same time you do not give up living, you have not given up learning. You are finding out a lot about cancer, both from your outer research and from your own laboratory of yourself. And you are writing it down. That makes for good and useful reading, at least for me.

    Yes, do all for yourself that you actually can, even if you find it is much more difficult than it used to be, but then ask for help when you really need it. You are right about all of that, I’m sure.

    Angels? I used to wonder if they existed. Angels are very real, though pseudo-religion has fed us all kinds of BS about them having no sex or having wings or what have you. Yeah, I know several and they’re very real. I don’t know if they all have to go through a real near-death experience to become angels. I doubt that. But who knows? I’ve had several near-death experiences, but I don’t think I’m a full-time angel.

    You wrote about people after near-death experiences not any longer being the owners of their lives. I don’t think that anyone is the owner of their life. I know I just live mine but don’t own it. Maybe the thing is that, after a near-death experience, one’s ego might let go of the crazy belief that it owns the life.
    —

    # 10 October 2009 at 11:41 AM
  • Rachael said:

    Strephon, I have some movie pics for you. A few romantic comedies and a couple of overcoming difficulties. (Rudy)- a great movie of a physically small man wanting to become a footbal player a major team. He never gave up and made it, and won a game. This is a true story and very inspiring. (Men of Honor)- with Cuba Gooding Jr. The first black navy diver and his journey to that point. His difficulties along this journey are amazing. He looses a leg and still demands to dive. Amazing movie!!
    Some romantic comedies for you and Stephania’s laughing pleasure. All with Meg Ryan. ( When Harry met Sally),(Youv’e got mail),(sleepless in Seatle),and(French Kiss), all quirky and fun to watch.

    Enjoy, Rachael

    # 10 October 2009 at 5:04 PM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    Rachael, I really look forward to the moments of joy these will bring-Strephon

    # 10 October 2009 at 9:58 PM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    Rachael? On the movie pics how do you send them? I cannot offer my address to the public for protection reasons. Did you find it here? Please point it out to us so we can take it off. For getting the address write Stefania and me personally and we can send our address as a strictly private thing only to you and protected from difficult people. Thanks if you can send these and thanks if you can’t. -Strephon

    # 17 October 2009 at 6:20 PM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    Strephon says he just revised the PayPal payments page with a procedure page you can do now to indicate payments with a Letter of Intent to Stefania that you buy or donate with now, so Strephon knows before he dies, just the money part.

    If you send also a personal message then he has it for a special time he can handle the energy, but he may never do a reply for you but try and do that paste in note and signature for you to paste into your own copy of his book when you get it or donate now on the basis of already having a book of his or the Dream Cards.

    Strephon cannot be responsible for replies anymore, unless by a real unexpected change in the tumor he stabilizes. Buy books now by Letter of Intention or donating already have a book of his or Dream Cards, lets Strephon write a sticky book label with at least his signature to put in your book or Dream Cards of his. This is sent to you when payments are working and arrive.

    # 17 October 2009 at 11:45 PM

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