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Cancer Despair Causes And Treatment Strephon’s Serious Condition

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Cancer Despair Causes And Treatment Strephon’s Serious Condition

Issues: bedside style doctors … cheerful doctors … negative but practical doctors … skeptical doctors … doctors undermining hope in patients … doctors showing skepticism about treatment results … Iscador skepticism … cheerful positive attitude … patient and doctor …

It is a bad day for me. Try and stick with my objectifying my process by telling it like I experience it so as to get the real points across in everybody handling this kind of suffering when they have to in life.

The Strephon Book of Reality

Remember, this is a reality book of immediate experiences and the consciousness I can generate from my experiences.

C.G. Jung was in the habit of writing up his sufferings and challenges. The health team said rest today after their two hours with me, which was too long in a way. But they and the head doctor do a good job with the practical support and medications. And they work together well.

What they don’t seem to do well at all, at least for me … we get back to this later …

My Health Symptoms Today, A Bad Day

  1. -shortness of breath whenever I have to exert myself like just getting up from a chair, but I still do it unless I am really bad off in the moment and have to ask a helper, not only Stefania when she is here, to help me up slowly.
  2. -shortness of breath and partial blocking in the throat when trying to eat most foods. Blended chicken soup still goes down easily, and water, and a kind of fortified milk drink with vitamins. Well chewed cottage cheese with linseed oil mixed in, to give anti cancer Omega Threes. humous spread because smooth. Apple sauce. Not much I can eat but these basics, but I like them all. I have coffee two to four times a day to keep me stimulated and peeing (Helen Saul recommendation.)
  3. -severe shortness of breath means a heavy burden by the cancer tumor on my system.
  4. -medications changes today to better fit the symptoms to control them, whether it does or not.
  5. -sore throat and gas pressure partly blocking me. On morphine and off sleeping pills because sleeping pills may be making me too groggy to do focused writing.
  6. -the reason I try and keep writing is to release my mental awareness into focused creative activity to release the thoughts and not add tensions of holding back, causing stress and more symptoms or intensifying them.
  7. -heavy edema in legs and feet. I now get a daily massage and wrap of my feet, now extended to sleeping overnight with the wrap. This feels good. No pain unless knocked.
  8. -a lot of phlegm now that I spit out into plastic cups with toilet paper in them. Sometimes coughing from this.
  9. -last night slept all night but also Stefania says I was coughing and restless. Just writing these words started me panting hard probably from going into an instant panic that I am going to die very soon instead of stabilize.

It makes me feel like I could just go at any time!!!

These are the symptoms of today happening to me. A lot of fatigue. It takes a lot of energy to deal with certain necessary things in the day. This lets me know how real this all is, and most likely not subjective but objective.

Sadness is often a lot of projecting of subjective sentiment, like memories from the past projected onto oneself and situation in the present moments of existence: grief, loss, regret, negativity, projections from the past.

Despair is a feeling born out of the present moment showing what ones real losses are on the day and may be soon in the future. So I have had real despair today.

Iscador Treatment Needs Positive Not Skeptical Attitude

I had my second shot of Iscador (mistletoe medication used with some success all over Europe, developed by the Steiner doctors.) My understanding is that there is real evidence that Iscador works to stop cancer growth and even turn things around.

Yet here is the catch:

I have a friendly but practical doctor who is negative rather than positive, and thinks that pointing out the negatives, the more signs the better, is being realistic.

This is a big key sentence, crucial even.

Doctors please don’t be negative!

Being negative is not being objective or realistic. It is condemning the patient to no possibility for a turn-around in cancer life to control the cancer tumor.

  1. One must always see with the cancer person the possibility of positive change, like the cancer growth stopping and even ending.
  2. Being open to both sides of the coin, and not just the negative side, would indeed be cheerful and aid a positive outcome in the cancer treatment.

Money is not whole or present with only one side. This is the realistic life.

Please, my doctor and other doctors, hold to this realistic position firmly. Train yourself and others to see and uphold to your patients the both-sides cheerful and positive bedside manner …

I know I asked my doctor to tell me the truth, but I did not say be negative, did I?

My practical doctor today pointed out to me negative symptoms:

  1. my face is a little yellow
  2. something wrong with my lips
  3. the edema is bad
  4. something wrong with my red finger tips
  5. little sounds that she makes again and again skeptical that Iscador will actually work to stop my cancer growth
  6. or to help comfort me physically
  7. Plus some skeptical words that affect me also
  8. No positive comments of positive possibilities given me!
  • Strephon’s Comments As a Psychologist And Patient About Not Being Negative Or Skeptical With a Patient Undergoing An Alternative Treatment That Has Been Adopted By The Staff Of A Medical Clinic Such As The Steiner Clinic in Nijmegen Where I Am Now.
  • Psychological studies have shown many times that attitude affects treatment, often decisively.

This is based on transference issues.

  1. To believe in ones doctor is to believe in the healing self. Yet if you are skeptical and negative towards a patient and his-her treatments then this is conveyed and causes objective despair.
  2. Do not convey to your patient personal and subjective skepticism, please. Keep both sides of the door open, a swinging door that goes in either direction according to whatever possibilities there are.

The skeptical and negative doctor does not:

Believe in your healing ever again and has taken the position you are dying now and there is nothing to do but make you comfortable.

Does not believe in your medicine can have a positive effect on you.

In contrast to my practical but skeptical, and not cheerful doctor’s bedside manner, I was first interviewed by a bright and enthusiastic doctor who told me about the Iscador treatment and possible results.

  1. Yet the first doctor I was placed with also said she had too many cancer patients and I would be switched to doctor M.
  2. This cheerful and passionate first doctor recommended highly the Iscador treatment, as did a nurse who assists the cancer doctors. Yet not the practical but skeptical Dr M.

What do I do now?

I am up against a wall. I can’t just say please switch me to a positive and cheerful doctor, can I? It does not seem to work that way here.

  1. Yet a doctor with always a positive and cheerful manner would keep open the door to some real healing, wouldn’t he or she?
  2. My practical doctor must think she has to be truthful at all times, not realizing what her pointing out even the smallest negative symptoms does to me and probably other cancer patients under her care.
  3. This doctor does not seem to have knowledge of how to work a positive bedside manner that shows her giving hope and positive results from her doctor work and now especially this Iscador treatment.
  4. My brief research of people with cancer cures always shows someone quite positive in relationship with the cancer person so this cancer person does not see themselves as a ‘cancer victim.’

My despair is real based on the doctor’s attitudes and remarks listed above.

Now I have to counteract in myself her lack of positive acts of kindness and cheerfulness. And I have to get positive reinforcement from certain regular commentators on my blog.

Yes, doctors, please listen and change any negative ways you use with your cancer patients.

  1. I will at least try and make a statement to my current doctor about the behavior I need for her. I will have this little list of negativities to show her somehow. How give it to her?
  2. Of course I can be accused, even secretly, of the Big Complaint that I am dying and it is the doctors fault of not giving the right medicine or positive and cheerful behavior to me to help make the Iscador work.
  3. Maybe when decisively and in a friendly manner confronted by all this she will change based on motivation of her own? (see comments: now I take a different approach)
  4. It is positive to try and assume she wants to be positive.

See what happens!

-Strephon

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  • Arthur B. Treadway said:

    Dear Strephon,

    You are surely right in thinking that the expression of negative thoughts, even professional evaluations, or emotions by a doctor at the patient’s bedside is likely to harm the patient. But you sure aren’t going to be able to change your doctors at the point you’ve reached, except perhaps by giving them an example of unusual good humor, positive thoughts and emotion, recognition of their efforts and those around you helping out. But the real workplace is inside yourself. No matter how sick you are, you still have the great advantage of having been working on yourself, your sensations, your feelings, your thoughts, for a very long time. You have perspectives that most other people cannot have. So your job is to keep up your own positive capacity, for yourself in the first place, and also for all those around you. The better your own humor, the more those around you will reflect that, too. Hard work, yes, but it is the divine work once again, it is all that really matters. Pollyanna it isn’t, buy yes, you yourself can make a difference. And you have been ready and willing to do it often in the past. Now you can practice what you already know thoroughly, no longer with your metal sword, but with the sword of your goodwill.

    I wish you a smile in your heart,
    Arthur

    # 14 October 2009 at 12:17 AM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    Thanks Arthur for the strong but friendly pep talk right when I need it. Writing the 1500 words or so on the last blog entry about doctors here has helped express my issues and therefore my capacity to be positive. I must of course read over your comments and instructions to get the point and create the inner positive doctor. May I use you as one of my positive-realists doctors? I am using you already. This is my issue now. I go to sleep at 1:30 AM and get through the night. I feel good energy now, but not being physically well energy of course. Which is better? The well or its water? -Strephon

    # 14 October 2009 at 12:27 AM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    Dear Arthur (and friends)
    Good news among the bad bearing out your previous suggestions: Our Dr M this morning took the initiative to talk to my lung specialist and he said getting me breathing oxygen is a good idea. So breathing oxygen is coming today! Also another medication you have to pay yourself, I guess 7 euro for the first dose or more. That comes today from the pharmacy to help unblock my throat. So Dr M takes initiative with my physical condition, maybe by phone is best, she might prefer getting her part of the job done from a distance. I have encountered real fear of psychologists here a number of times in the Netherlands. So people probably are afraid of being judged by a psychologist? Dr M may be trying to be also a psychologist with me, but that doesn’t work for me unless you are are really good and caring professional. “It’s okay, doctor, I have a very few intelligent and professional others who can help me handle the psychological, thanks. You don’t have to try and do this for me. I do respect and appreciate your trying to get the medications and treatments right. Maybe that is your best skill for me, and I like that practical side of you. My psychological needs I have another kind of expert who keeps up with me and helps me there.”

    So Arthur, that seems to be you just by your choice to do so and to give me positive and real compassionate advice via the blog here so others can read and participate and use from the blog and maybe from a blog book eventually.

    The negative news is that still more phlegm and worse blockage, one this morning almost total, it felt like, but medication coming through Dr M is supposed to help with this.

    God, it wasn’t so long ago before my April 2 birthday that I was playing bad tennis, ending that sports activity for me in my life!

    Anything else you feel needing saying, please feel free … -Strephon

    # 14 October 2009 at 10:10 AM

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