The marriage to Stefania happened yesterday! And it adds a special soul dimension to our relationship, a mark in time. Our six years before this was the practice of our relating and that turned out good. Stefania and I handled things naturally and with consciousness and gave to each other with the guiding lights of love and consciousness.

I was careful not to announce the event coming on the blog here because of the need to protect the marriage ceremony from any negative people, one especially who has showed herself to be so in the past.

People who also live love, and not hurt, at Stefania’s work came because they wanted to come. We did not have to invite them.

My Jewish friends from my former tennis life came and were very warm, so I had good ‘parents’ on hand! My own biological parents had refused this role with me, so now I had a healing.

But more!

When my friends left the restaurant we ate at afterward they met the new rabbi who just had born a baby son. They brought the rabbi in to give us greetings. This is a true synchronicity! For me the Orthodox rabbi represents my Jewish ancestors, so a Source is at work in my life, as before but also now.

Many help with support, some with love and understanding. They don’t just witness, but are active with the support when they can be. It’s a beautiful synergy.

One of the biggest helpers who leads the others has heart bypass surgery, in other words he almost died but came back. Thus he is an angel, or has an angel inside of him. I doubt if he knows the principle that once you have been at death’s gate and recover to live more this existence ‘your life is not your own.’

That’s why I find these people may become real angels on earth. Unfortunately some become the devil’s worst, taking revenge, hurting people, being negative. Maybe they were shocked into permanent fear by some traumatic experience of their own, still not dealt with. But it still is not right to take revenge and deliberately hurt other people, is it?

So Stefania’s and my marriage was yesterday, September 30, 2009, and a positive act of love and consciousness for us all.

Thanks for your comments Jeremy. Yes, we got happily married and are married still. I think my cancer is a little worse today, or just acting up. But I reached the date we got early, even though being very weak. That is a big accomplishment not possible without a lot of will power on my part and a lot of caring and real support on the part of several others.

Strephon

I feel you had it right the other day, and now. Just live as long as you are alive. Just think life and even dying is living dying. That makes it more of a joy and adventure. Stay open to the wonder of all possibilities.

You are helping me face the end, too. Even the stars “die”, whole galaxies and ultimately all galaxies, perhaps to form new ones.

I thought about who I am (we are) when there is no memory, no I, as the Buddhists strive for – then this detachment is a kind of death – yet for them there is consciousness. Can we have consciousness without memory?

Certainly we’d have to remember that one is conscious? Can this happen without remembering language?

In death do we go unconscious without memory and become the basic building blocks of the planet all over again.

Once I died in India – 40 years ago – and left my body – lifting high above the city of Mathura. Particles in a cloud went clear through my invisible body but I was conscious and thinking. What this because of an invisible connection to the still, stiff body below? Perhaps even without the heart beating, the brain still functioned, or was it that something that was me survived, and would have gone on to another place had I not willed myself back into the body and urged myself to Breath!

There was a tsunami in Indonesia yesterday and many people who thought they were going to live for a long time suddenly died. I or anyone could suddenly drop off in a moment without preparation. It is important for all of us to prepare.

It is said that our very last thoughts are the most important and determine where we go next. Perhaps I would think saying something like a mantra of Love, love, love to the pulse beat, making it a habit, so when the moment comes that will be the thought in the mind, and coupled with this to remember to follow the highest brightest light in the sky for that will according to the Tibetans take you to the best place.

I sat and practiced shifting my consciousness from the body to the outline, to outside, and then as far away in 360 degrees as possible, then again in this cycle, seeing light pulsing with the pulse about 60 times a minute. It gives some practice and facility and diminishes fear.

Love too is the greatest healer so it can’t at all hurt – it can help on all levels even the miraculous.

Get happily married.

Yours,

Jeremy

What do I think? (Too much, undoubtedly.)

Your report from the visit to the Steiner doctor doesn’t surprise me. There’s no hope now. Well, a sensible doctor is not going to give you a pep talk to build up your hope. But that does not mean that you yourself should have no hope. Have whatever hope you can; that is your affair and I can’t see how it can hurt. Right now you have this purpose of living long enough for you and Stefania to marry. It might seem a small thing in the light of all your other hopes for purposeful activity, but it is a thankful and generous purpose, hence clearly a worthy purpose. And maybe you will be able to achieve it. Maybe you will be able to achieve even others of your many remaining purposes.

Are you a giver or a receiver? BS. A sane person is not only a receiver or a giver, ever; no one can just inhale or just exhale, either. Saying thanks for the help one receives is also a kind of giving, especially when we really feel thankful. But maybe what the Dr. meant was to allow yourself to relax and receive whatever care you need and those around you can give, rather than hanging onto your ideas of self-sufficiency, independence, whatever. That would make good sense to me.

My best wishes to you both,
Arthur