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Health Check With Myself – Improving Or Not? Sept 5, 2009

Issues: … ones own health care … will power needed … live purposefully the day … counter the regressive pull … do something positive each day … be aware now …

One must monitor oneself? Right? Not enough doctors? Not seriously ill enough to be in hospice? Not well enough yet not to worry daily and nightly?

• How do you handle this one as consciously as possible?

Remembering that consciousness is more than just awareness. Consciousness involves also intentionality, purpose, directed will towards the value, in contra naturum, going against nature, like now when cancer says die but Strephon says live if at all possible.

I still take the standard, current medications I have already written about, plus about 18 remedies of the alternative treatment variety.

But am I doing enough? Am I doing the right thing by my body and myself?

Too much croissants? Too many corn chips, though they are natural?

Not taking enough veggies? Not doing the labor of juicing veggies every day?

Whatever I read on alternative says to eat the veggie routine that for hundreds of thousands of years humanity evolved on.

But juicing takes some work to wash and cut fresh vegetables, as well as buy them at the health food store. Then after you drink the fresh juice you wash the machine thoroughly.

Yes, work, and I don’t feel like I have the will power for doing a little of this kind of work. Other times I do.

Regressive pull? I should be veggie juicing every day? Eating raw veggies? I do eat some, but should I not be eating more, making sure my body is base and not acid?

Current symptoms is the draining I feel in my throat and the four or five mild coughs I have a day. And I seem a bit depressed. I can have low physical energy in the day while at other times have enough energy and will power to do physical tasks.

Sleep pattern is still up and down all night and sometimes in the day, though this morning I did sleep I believe for 3.5 hours. I don’t mind this sleep pattern, but is this so unusual that it shows I am seriously ill.

I brought this up this morning with Stefania and she reminded me that the therapist said the alternative remedies take a few weeks to show any difference to my body.

Okay, it has been two or three weeks now. Let’s experience some results, I say.

Well, not everyone gets cured some have written.

Yes, yes, but my intention is to get cured by having the best body balance possible.

Am I doing enough? Can I be strong enough to make daily veggie juice?

Method: add a new positive element to my life daily. I will lose some of these. I did daily juice when I was on the 42 day juice fast. Let’s juice again and help the healing process even more. Cut down on the chips and the bread also. Cut down on the eating where I can and yet don’t hurt myself.

I can always do more.

The Regressive Pull says something like, Strephon, you are doing great. You are doing enough. Don’t wear yourself out. Enjoy yourself. Why do extra work. Do you really need to juice veggies daily?

To which I must say right back, Listen here, I must do the max I can for my health daily, not the minimum. I may be weak but I must not be overwhelmed by the negative side of life.

Always add positives to your day, Strephon. Yes, you are salivating right now pretty heavily, and you don’t know what is happening, and you miss having a really good health consultant, but still act on the healing knowledge you do have.

This I must do, will do, am doing.

The theme is that the cancer lung tumor feels quite active in me. I must find and do the things that reduce that tumor’s activity, maybe even eliminate it.

Orthodox medicine must have dramatic results one way or another, because it uses such intense treatments. Alternative therapies are not so dramatic, are they?

And which of the alternative treatments really works? How much can we trust strangers who become our guides if we let them?

I feel like I want to sleep right now, but that would be purposeless if I have the energy to do otherwise.

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