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Strephon’s Disappearing Dream And Its Archetypes

Issues: … life after death … dream disappearance … personal existence … between two worlds … dying soon or living on … predicting death … stopping archetypal death … existence after physical death … great dream …

I just had this startling dream. Went to bed just before midnight very sleepy and not eight minutes after midnight I am here reporting my dream.

In the dream I am at a square table with Terran and a couple of others in a kind of seance that develops. There are gold coins on the table which I gather up in my hands as if to make disappear. My eyes are closed. I say see the coins are disappearing, as if I am doing a trick of holding them in my hands. It does seem if there are less coins now though I have a few left in my hands and some spread out around the table.

Suddenly everyone is standing up and the table is disappearing like a seance. I stand also in some fear. I feel for the table, eyes still closed, and it is gone. Coins still in my hands, maybe. What about Terran and the others of my seance? They have gone also or moved back from the vanished table.

I wake up realizing this is some sort of strong dream in which the dream is reality and the reality is dream. I experience myself very much present but the material things, except maybe some of the gold coins are gone, like the table and the people who were sitting here with me.

Also since I am just as existent and present with my mental awareness of what I have been doing and what happened out of it all, it seems as if I exist between two worlds: their world and now this other world where the material world is so much less sure and can disappear like that and all this energy exist.

However, along with this energy world manifesting of spirits it seems the physical people, like Terran, vanish also but that I as an existent stay the same, though maybe not physical anymore myself, but it seems that I still have some of the gold coins in my hands with weight and substance. But are they disappearing also?

Or is it I disappearing? No, I am the awareness at least of my own personal existence while at the same time the former physical world of material objects and people suddenly withdraw and vanished when I tried to do and manifesting and disappearing trick with the gold coins.

It seems that I did not really believe I was manifesting magic or a shift between physical and just energy, but it seemed to be intense anyway as happening that way, taking over my own awareness and experience of what was happening.

COMMENT

Kind of scary as if this is true, as if I can suddenly be dead as a physical being and only still exist as inherent awareness of myself doing something not that meaningful but right on, which is demonstrating that one can go from physical existence into non physical existence just like that and be only aware but not active or determining in physical existence like we normally are when alive.

• When alive we are determining and manifesting in physical existence.

Right now and today and tonight I have been indeed aware that I could die anytime, that I am leading an energy existence also, doing physical things but feeling the energy drain, and sometimes renew as I did these things.

Like today I drove Stefania three or four times around in the car being careful, both of us that I, we, were aware of every biker, of which there are so many in the Netherlands, so I keep to the speed limit and do not hit anyone or have a memory lapse or anything to make me at all dangerous as a car driver.

I was present as Stefania made her carpet choices but not active with her in doing so but after giving my positive reaction. During her talk with the sales person I just sat quietly nearby resting in my weakened body, which was fine.

So in fact I am in a weakened state in my body as I go through this. Is it the cancer doing this, or the cancer and the medications?

Now I have alternative medications as well. Are these acting as a call-back to my awareness existence to come back into the body, not to play strenuous tennis again but to be present physically in the body doing older men things and everyday tasks, as well as all the writing I do and love, like right now?

Is my main issue either I go with a ‘call-back’ into the physical body, or it’s time to leave the physical body in a dying process, leave Stefania and other ‘friends,’ leave material manifesting like making the new apartment nice, which I don’t do anyway because that is Stefnaia’s job and I don’t have full physical energy for it anyway?

However, I have become more physically active lately in doing life tasks like shopping for food and doing some of the cooking, as well as helping keep track of how we are spending our moving money so that we are realistic here.

• I have made a conscious effort to assert my vital self in the body again.

But this dream is a shock. Terran was always mystical and an angel spirit who had to be called back into the body, but it’s being not her natural place here in life though now she is on a grandmother journey she writes about in her blog, but even this makes it seem that Terran is only present on earth because she has this mother-grandmother role to live through and write about.

For me on the other hand I am a creator in the physical world of things of spiritual value manifested as entirely new, like the Dream Cards and the dreamwork manuals, and even the dreamwork approach as a whole.

When I worked at helping people heal in deep process work I gave over to the healing energy working. I helped the healing energy manifest in the physical form of a person’s life, as a healer really, though I did not call it that. I also had difficulties of being too manifesting of spirit energy and being therefore subject to the dark energies in the ‘sick person’ and so getting an overwhelming feeling at times, a naustic sickness suddenly from too much unconscious energy manifesting that I had then to recover from.

• The person gets well but the healer gets sick in the transfer of energy and manifestation.

Now with the cancer diagnosis I am the manifestor: the dark energy is at the core of my being active in birthing a malignancy that grows and eats functional tissue until I as a physical entity am dead.

• Is what is manifesting here in this dream really the lesson of being between the two worlds of spirit-energy and material being and action?

I certainly am asserting my tenuous right to live further in physicality and action but at the same time facing that I can so easily go away from physical into psychic entirely.

This type of state of being I have called in the past in my depth work with people the manifesting of the archetype. If you can manifest the archetype in its spirit nature you do not necessarily have to act it out in extreme form in the material world.

Archetypal manifestation is where spirit dominates material, bodily existence because it has to, especially when the person manifesting is too weak in real ego and purpose to maintain Presence, if not Intended Action also.

What is maybe sure, so not so sure, is that the Archetype has dominance. There is an archetypal dominance and shift happening that I am to manifest and go with.

Is it to be primarily an archetypal shift only or mainly in spirit, or must it also manifest as material and therefore at some point, even soon, I am dead?

Does anybody get this as I articulate it here?

It is part of the archetypal model I developed years also to model how healing archetypes work.

In extreme form a person acts out the archetype. One of my close friends had her boyfriend disappeared on her and family in El Savador. He was killed and his body never found. I kept her in counseling, not as regular process but as lending her ‘ground’ as she kept getting through her experience. Her family got her to stay in California and not return to the killing ground of El Savador where she would probably be killed herself. I had talks with her and she ‘confessed’ that once she had deliberately run her car off the road into a tree but her instincts made her miss the tree so she was not successful in going herself from material being into only spirit being to successfully find and reunite with the boyfriend she had so loved.

She and I easily understood what was going on with her. I helped keep her in physical reality and she finally wanted to be here, and found another Spanish guy eventually to relate to.

Luz first came to me with dreams: she wanted to know if her boyfriend was still alive in El Salvador? They came to his clinic with masks on and took him in broad daylight just before he was to join the revolutionaries.

I had to tell her that it looked like her dreams gave no hope that he was alive. To disappear someone is to cause their loved ones suffering forever. There is no resolution of seeing and burying the body. Yet, in dreams we know the truth, even if we do not want to face it. I say this myself as an expert who has qualified himself by his ongoing dreamwork of many years, as well as working with other people’s dreams.

There are some evils that are worse than evil itself …

I give myself this little qualification here, but the big task is for me to face my own existence-destiny as it really is through how my dreams manifest quite honestly.

I do not respect a number of dreamworkers who seem not honest with their work with people’s dreams, but then who am I to judge, except being a world expert by now. Yet, the hardest task is to face my own existence and what my dreams are doing now dreaming me. I could turn out to be an utter coward like some other people I have known. Laugh a little at this, Strephon, laugh!

Many examples that are true stories I can talk about, far more profoundly than most Jungians who write in this area. But why do thus since it afflicts me deeply at times?

I don’t approach these things as objective, somewhat distancing scholars. I am a process worker. My unconscious is always directly involved in the healing processes of others through their own unconscious’s. I can talk to people silently and they hear me. I can hear their thoughts silently. I can laser-scope into their core being and articulate the essential issues they don’t want to face and won’t face unless they are suffering too much what they do to themselves in avoidance.

Now I seem to be having my own bout with the transition between two types of worlds and how the archetypes are manifesting with me.

Okay, it is time to exit this life I could say because the material level of bodily being is weaker naturally.

Greater Destiny To Manifest?

But what if there is special cause at work? What is there is still Greater Destiny to manifest?

Then I am not to exit this material world just yet, or even for a few years because I have manifest events and creations to accomplish yet out of the primary spirit world of the archetypes?

Am I just hoping or is this issue possibly real?

Jung impressed me in describing how in older age he had a heart attack that sent him to hospital and almost killed him. In his spirit world of direct self-awareness, but without his material body, he was an observer in his dream far above the earth looking down at his people and his body. Up there with Jung in spirit was his personal doctor. In the end Jung decided to return to his material body for more existence and living to manifest still more purpose and key ideas as his older books.

Jung still had the task to get out great ideas as his later books so as to influence the culture, and he certainly influenced me and other special culture-creators.

• So Jung’s return to the body was certainly purposeful for me and important others, like Dr Howes my own best life mentor.

The case is relevant to me now, but what am I to make of it all?

The manifestation between material and spirit worlds in this my immediate dream tonight points me to the issue and awareness to be, Strephon, aware of these two worlds and make, Strephon, what choices you can here in the greater archetypal manifestation going on.

• Yes, do I still want to live, and live to manifest still important purpose like the Jesus novel and other things?

Then I must make that kind of choice with all my being and continue the shift of the cancer call which was and is to start destroying my material body and end my life because I have no more destiny to create by bringing in from the spirit world of manifestation material creations that are purposeful and helpful to many people eventually.

It must not be a will to live by Strephon simply because it is painful and rather useless to die now. Ah, the human factor …

Yes, it is useless in a way, like the game of the dream here described of faking coins disappearing in my closed hand but then suddenly playing with the archetypes like that, Strephon, becomes real, proving that spirit world and archetypes are truly real and I could so easily manifest a physical death now.

Sometimes I long for a dream expert greater than myself to help show me the way, but none can manifest. I am the responsible one for my own true destiny.

Beware the truth-tellers if they appear outside you … Just beware the truth tellers …

Key Sentence: Better by far, Strephon, to manifest an additional consciousness here and not have an archetypal shift caused because I am being fearful and unconscious.

Yes, here I am with little sleep writing away clearly on the ‘real problem as if getting ‘enough sleep’ is not a real problem but figuring out ‘the archetypal shift’ and the consciously intended part I can best play in it is what is of crucial importance.

So I will take the present dream then as an awareness dream to point out to me my own archetypal tendencies and not to just let the archetypes act out unconsciously, which they may do anyway, but to lend my full consciousness and intentionality to the process so that I assert my own will to live further purposefully.

In reading all the New York Times comments to the Kennedy brain cancer death, none dealt with the primacy of spirit over matter and kept criticising that modern medical science had no real cure for any kind of cancer.

Witness yesterday the local doctor telling me that he was in remission two years now from his cancer prostate operation and had a 75% chance for survival I guess five years which means remission and no cancer manifestation anymore for quite a few years. He looked to be only in his fifties and so he would indeed want to believe statistics as certainties of his continued manifestation in his body, in his material existence, whether he is using that prostate of his, if he still has it, well in its natural functions.

Our Grand Prostate

For I say, strictly intuitively, that the prostate is made to function to cause spermatic, sexual ejaculation to feel the pleasure of a full orgasmic release regularly.

Ah, the boys use their dicks to penetrate the girls and the girls accept this. Life, life, life, I am life still as the young celebrate their orgasims together but have a harder time making the money, making the money in a hard, harsh world. I penis you. You vagina me. Thanks for these simple truths again and again. Where would you and I be without our mutual orgasms? They don’t always come off, do they? But when the do, is that not a philosophy, a great philosophy in itself to live. Ah, my precious darling, you give me existence and what can I give you in return? My own consciousness, my own awareness. I am the Bob Dylan of our sex. Do you agree? Of course you don’t, my darling supreme! Truth is what you experience. The dicks, the vagina’s, the existence itself …

• This means, and I practice it myself, that the male, and maybe the female practice regular masturbatory ejaculation to keep that prostate for the man functioning as nature intents.

Of course women should make themselves readily available to their men to ejaculate within their very core being, but women have other things to do besides this and so are not always available. Thus men should masturbate frequently enough as feels good and so that the prostate functions quite regularly so it does not enlarge or get cancerous. I did not bring this up with the good doctor of course. He wants to believe in his own survival rate, but I suggest it is all too physical in viewpoint.

• And lesbians, why give hate to a man, when you do not allow love? Loving your own sex is not love. Only the opposites unite!

Here in my extended dreamwork I am challenged to be vitally aware of the archetypes operating, which is always both physical and energy in manifestation together.

My Task

Time to end this little essay, but we have said it as best we can how it works. Now my job as both the wounded one and the healer is to be aware and intentional also at the core level of the archetypes themselves.

I do believe this is ‘right work’ and so will give myself to it more fully and more consciously as needed.

I do believe that my present course of high energy work at everyday tasks and ultimate tasks, like the Jesus novel and all the good stuff being written about for the blog is the best present way to go. So I feel confirmation coming out of this dream, by the fact of the dream warning me to take things very seriously and not to just play with the archetypes, though play has its rehearsal aspects needed also, as we can know from the play of children rehearsing life first before they participate fully in it.

• Life the full manifestation, but do you consciously also chose to manifest life purposefully?

We stop here for now. Has anyone read this through and understood it for themselves also in how they live their lives but are also lived by the archetypes if they let themselves manifest too unconsciously.

Now it comes to me that my two greatest teachers, Elisabeth Howes lived to 94 and Dorothea Romankiw lived into her eighties.

These two were great manifesters of healing communities that had so much positive value for me and a great many others. They followed Greater Purpose first over personal well being, and suffered their own big bouts with the unconscious.

Don’t  I know!

For me, Strephon Kaplan-Williams, I must take to the bigger stage, even at this my more frail age and keep greater focus and also keep in depth related to archetypal manifestations in my own core being.

Now I have finally said all that is essential and can stop. Will post this tomorrow after correcting errors. I am quite curious who will pick up on it, like the brilliant Rachael, and Stefania who thinks deeply but tends to say less than little with me, but can come through profoundly if evoked to it.

Well, well, … among the men Jeremy seems to understand these things, or does he? Has he been confronted with this level of being yet?

And where are the others …

Whom of you all are deeply connected to dream time?

What are you waiting for … ?

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