I know the Jesus material and the meaning of the crucifixion for Jesus’ own life but as a great universal symbol in Western culture.

Think what it means and feels to me that I no longer can say, I will half wait out the process, or let the alternative helper do her interventions and hope they help make me well without the need for orthodox medical treatments, the dominant form in our present society available to me.

I am saying now I do not have alternative therapy of the first order available to me. The full practice therapist I do have may be excellent, and I want to use her well, but I can’t wait around.

I salivate now, I feel pains in my chest sometimes, I take strong medications to control symptoms, I am a sick man, though not so much in spirit any more.

Since I am currently this way, and I have recorded here the horrible suffering a couple of weeks back of the coughs that hardly stopped and all the sputum spit up in the special jars and also the depressed states I could easily get into.

Yes, I went through these but felt great relieve that the second doctor consulted gave me the right medication, the DEX, to relieve inflation acting out that produces phlegm that in turn produces coughing bouts all day.

Yes, folks, I will take the doctor’s orders here to relieve a bad suffering situation that prevented other kinds of work.

So relief from severe discomfort at the same time I was trying to understand my case and have the right breakthrough insights to cooperate fully with experts if I could find them here.

I did at last find them through the proper assertion of my needs ad conditions until certain people like Mark knew that I was cooperative and ‘needing to know.’ Then he came through with the right recommendation.

I pointed out it was a scary story that the substitute Dr Jakkobs could not get the catheter up his penis so he could pee and empty that full bladder, never mind she apologized later for failing to do so. But if you do not have ongoing experience, just because you are a doctor why should you be able to do certain medical procedures. Anyone can get inflated and unrealistic, but in the meanwhile the patient suffers. Mark got his teatment. That is the positive point. An apology does not help if the problem is not decisively solved.

The point is to become active realistic in this life and things will go so much better for you in using your life allotment time and resources available to you.

Have I explained yet that I have become effective in this new area
of my existence.

Effectiveness is one area that we can agree on. I shall recover and us the alternative regular.

What will you do?

Stefania I could draw your back in like and art class, but instead I support you with insghts but still out of the way, and so that is what we deal with.

Our time is up Dr Adams. Many thanks again. I feel hopeful and grounded. I move ahead. Don’t fight mythical battles against impossible enemies. Let go of possessions and personal attachments and things we might hold on to.