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Dream Escaping Execution Aug 26, 2009

Issues: ... conscious processing … who am I in these immediate moments of existence? … dreams … dreamwork effectiveness … being expert or not at something … working with others competently … doctors handle your patient … getting effective help …  trust the process …

In bed by 12 midnight with sleeping pill and up at 1 AM to write this dream down.

DREAM REPORT

I am a hillbilly farmer with others. Some our killed by government officials and their men but I have been careful to be quiet or not rebellious maybe, not sure, and therefore not killed or put on the list to be killed.

Another farmer I know says, don’t you want to look at the list of those to be killed? You are not on the list. I look, and I go out the back door and I keep moving. I am not going to stay at my farm even, I think, but keep walking away so there is no chance they will capture and kill me.

COMMENT

I think this is the dream. Just woke up to pee and write this down in my usual sleep pattern of waking one or two hours later after falling asleep.

On my mind is my chances of living and getting well even from lung cancer. Today I have two appointments with local house doctors to get opinions and info on me so far, my symptoms, their medications, what I can expect, my attitudes in handling myself.

• It’s always a big issue talking with the doctors. They are so strong in their views, yet don’t say them directly. It is what do I want?

Hell, they diagnosed me, they should cure me, just joking. But some truth here.

Strephon’s Issue

Why should I in 2009 be the one trying to figure out how to grow healthy and live at least a few more years, but is as it is, even with the pulmonary specialist and the university.

The doctors are available but what do you want?

Hell, I’m not the expert. I’m the patient, in case you haven’t noticed.

Strephon as an effective dreamwork psychologist

When I was active and successful as a dreamwork psychologist people came to me to help solve their dreams and their emotional states. I dealt with suicidal people, depressed people, people suffering why live, people with traumas from the past, like having been raped, in accidents, being threatened with death by lovers, having repeat strong dreams of confronting poisonous snakes, haunted by a dead father, and on and on and on.

I was well trained in Jungian psychology for ten years and two years in a masters program in counseling psychology and in marriage and family counseling with a license in this area.

I never said to anyone, well, what do you want, how do you think you should be cured?

I said instead lets get into your worst suff, your most scary nightmares, your childhood traumas, that recent rape. I will take you through this stuff emotionally hoefully and that will lead to release and curing in the sense you won’t have the same symptoms again, the same nightmares, the same relationship partner.

I don’t tell you what to do, I said but I do show you how to solve the problems evoking your own healing powers and also evoking your reality function, your change of attitude towards handling these things and having a real shift in your life.

I guarantee nothing but I am active with you and together, judging from other work with people, things happen that are greater than either one of us, and for the better. Let’s just get involved totally with your process.

Yes, i twas intuitive. I trusted the greater process. I knew how to deal with the person’s ego, their defense system, and their archetypal patterns, and their relationship partners if they brought that up as an issue for them.

I did not deal with their parents, but I did with their children sometimes. Sometimes I dealt with their partners. Always I dealt with their dreams with them if they brought them up.

I got healing weekly in bodywork myself. I worked on my own dreams in journalwork, figuring that after ten to fifteen years of Jungian analysis once a week for all those years about I should be working now with myself and my dreams by myself with dreams, life and relationships, and what is evoked in me, with me, in being a professional dreamwork psychologist and writer. To ground me I got a lot of good bodywork weekly as I said, until my bodyworker put me on every two weeks instead because he wanted to get the people on his waiting list as well.

So why is this not done with me?

• Why are there not healers-helpers who are definite with me, who know more than I do in this cancer, or body area? Why are they not entering in an active process with me?

• Why? Because giving me medications is an easy and short process and I am grateful to have symptoms controlled.

At least I am going alternative, which is actually the traditional for thousands of years.

But even here I am doing the study, research and decision making mostly. The new alternative helper gave me one two hour diagnostic session and then went on her summer vacation, giving me a list of remedies to order.

You, our readers, see the results. I am doing a lot of work, just like when I got degrees at the university, reading their textbooks, taking their exams, writing papers, entering discussions, finally graduating, not with a doctorate because that took to much time and money, but two masters degrees in literature and in counseling psychology. The ten-year intensive Jungian training program with Dr Howes and her Guild did not give up degrees but thank God for that because they dominated the hell out of us and put the living fear into me that I was not good enough to work with people and never would be.

Eventually I became consciousness enough to understand this threat and perception was itself a training technique, and I can laugh at it now.

DREAM INSIGHT HERE OR SOMETHING

I note that I missed death in this dream, but not with a great an archetypal drama.

Remember, those of you who read it here, of the Mammoth coming charging up the hill but missing me because he wanted to?

In my experience with myself and others and their dreams when you are killed in a dream and when you are not it is significant.

I note in the Mammoth dream it was the Mammoth who had the power to trample me down or not trample me down. An extraordinary choice, if dream figures make choices. I tend to see it as the Dream Source, the Wisdom Function, making the choices regarding ego identified me in how the dream itself is dramatized.

Dream Enactments

One of the techniques I invented was reenacting the dream in drama scenes using the dreamer and the dream group members. No this technique is not psychodrama. I had directors of psychodrama in my year long training in Norway and even was asked to give a three day dreamwork course to some of their senior students. My process work was so different that some of the students were objecting they did not know what was going on.

Well, that is my technique. You are not supposed to know what is going on! I have to bypass your ego defenses and get you directly involved in your archetypal patterns just as in most dreams you as dream ego do not know what is going on in the larger dream but seem forced to react and act  regarding your own dreamed scene.

Then as necessary to dream enactments as I directed them with my students I reenacted the same dream with them, as drama director but this time with the missing healing element that makes the dreamwork drama whole this time.

Yes, I invented and applied the very advanced method but we have Jung to thank for pointing out so definitely that we go through an individuation and wholeness process, either consciously and integratively or unconsciously in extreme form with the archetypal opposites acting out and taking the poor ego with them, and do they survive such an extreme process?

Yes, some have fled from their dreamwork processes, and a person can always choose not to come back to more sessions until their work seems at last resolved and they have a new understanding about themselves and life.

Yes, I write out for some reason the process I developed to use with people and their biggest dreams, of course getting wonderful help from Jungian psychology, but also from Gestalt psychology learned a bit when cooperatively working with Gestalt process psychologists. The Jungians I trained with did not do direct emotional process work but they did do much discussion work, sharing of themselves and even their shadows, worked with the principles and teachings of the historical Jesus, had their dreams analyzed in private with the analysts.

We worked in a committed way, and that means working a long time on yourself.

Why am I not sleeping in the normal way?

Because I am not sleeping in the normal way, but don’t think I am dying from it, do you?

I’ve taught for years that if you are not sleeping get up and creative with the energy, journal it, meditate, tackle the issues of your life, whatever!

I am furiously active and the energy is running wonderfully well. I take a sleeping pill that prevents me from vibrating, being physically nervous, and then an hour later I am up and energized to write down my current dreamwork and consciousness work.

Go where the energy is, I articulated and first practiced years ago.

It still works and I must remember that.

When yesterday my partner and I went necessary shopping we over calculated the distance to walk in the city and so I got tired, really a bit tired, but we sat for a little ordinary lunch, I got home in the afternoon, rested, not fit for work on my Jesus novel, but it’s again, go where the energy is.

Now I am energized and working hard in the night as if I were doing some of my best work with the students and clients of the past.

I write here also for the blog so that I gain clear perspective. Everyday it seems I can forget little things just happening and have to work to recall them.

Here the long term work of who I am and what I am dealing with unfolds in the night, and I feel these things also as bodily symptoms.

Do I live or die now?

An ego-concerned question, yes?

Do I do process on my immediate existence?

That’s more like the real question.

And I do …

Assignment if you say so

And you can give me assignments also, though I am notorious for not carrying out what others think they want for me.

For ‘assignment’ I do suggest that if you read my stuff here and thus feel involved with this kind of consciousness that you write a comment or two or write a paper, or make a shift somehow in how you are not practicing life.

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