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Cancer Report Strephon August 20, 2009

Issues: … control of symptoms … medications … fears …. positive spirit … sleep hours … diet interventions … check with doctor … daily living context …

This report reports current condition of my mental and body and daily living context.
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At 12 midnight went to bed taking sleeping pill. Stefania insisted because the previous night I stayed up later than her, took sleeping pill but stayed at the computer and half an hour later was sleep at computer, deep, groggy, and she had to work hard to get me up and into bed.

Sometimes I have fallen into these deep sleeps, but now always right after the sleeping pill.
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Up at 2:30 AM alert, arms vibrating, dreaming of taking medication I think but doing the other interventions. 2.5 hour sleep which seems fine to me. Happens like this last few nights I believe. Yesterday same and I wrote and researched a few hours, stayed up the night to have breakfast or make food for Stefania for her work at 8 AM. Then to bed sleeping at 10 AM to 12 noon for waking and making food and eating with Stefania or taking her to apartment?

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Intervention with Jacqueline making me out a detailed diet, published another entry. J also does kinesiology in which I hold my arm out and she pushes on it saying a certain food or vitamin I take. She has experience in courses, her own health and running a health food store for hears where I shop. J’s diet for me published as a separate entry with permission.

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Differences in diet approach apparent with J who includes meat and measure with the kinethesiology. M with a husband of special genetic disposition on too much cholesterol r strictly vegetarian diet and doctors have measure his loss of cholesterol. level. Side issue: I was challenged by M to leave her and husband alone by hot sending articles I find on the web that say eat meat or change diet. M is right and I told her I should not interfere. I am no expert. She pointed out the contrary views of research on the web and motivations to sell products behind some of these articles. I acknowledge her right to not my interfering and others not interfering. This is a life and death matter maybe for her and husband since husband has had brother die o cholesterol at young age. It runs in family. She and Frank have reduced the cholesterol according to doctor’s tests. M attributes that to her vegetarian diet. Husband has strong support from wife who does the research and has for years. I got the point to not interfere because I don’s know what I am doing and it is her right to have her own program without other giving any input unless asked. I admit wanting to changed husband’s diet but that not my right or job unless asked. M and F must take responsibility for the ir approach, such as I must.

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I make many spelling errors right here corrected by spelling checker. Am I being affected by sleep medication?

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Big current push for Strephon right now is to intervene in my body by the best possible diet to do so. I must choose someone to follow with knowledge, explanation and  good spirit. Jacqueline had a close relationship with a dieting from that affected her. for me to work with her input and died I have to follow her diet faithfully.
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New health practitioner current on vacation has strong views, like not organ gains because all have pesticides residues. The what do I eat. I eat beans largely which are anti tumor at this point a my partner should not eat beans for the same reasons.

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MAJOR CURRENT INTERVENTION BY STREPHON
NOW THAT I AM STABILIZED BY DOCTOR’S MEDICINE INTERVENTIONS TO CONTROL SYMPTOMS, WHICH ARE WORKING.

—I MUST FORM A DAILY DIET AND PAY FOR IT, COOK IT MYSELF SOMETIMES WIT NEW TURBO COOKER THAT COOKS SIMPLE AND HOLDS IN THE JUICES.

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Jacqueline has listed the died and check intuitively which foods and supplement are right for me. This is a diet list published elsewhere on the blog.
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I WANT NOW TO DO THE MAJOR INTERVENTION OF A RIGHT FOOD ROUTINE. I DID THE 42 DAY JUICE FAST, LOST THE 12 KILOS, NOT LONGER FELT BLOATED AND THAT I COULD STAY ON A DISCIPLINED DIET. (still making spelling mistakes more than average corrected by software.)
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INTERVENTIONS ARE DESIGNED TO WORK AS HEALTH AND AS MEDICINE TO NEUTRALIZE THE CANCER. BOTH THESE GOALS I AM STUDYING AND ALSO PREPARING TO MAKE A DECISION TO STICK WITH ONE.

THE LOCAL JACQUELINE HAS A DIET FOR ME DIFFERENT FROM M IN THAT I EAT SOME MEAT. THE NEW ALTERNATIVE PERSON HAS SOME DIFFERENCES ALSO AS TO DIET, LIKE ALL BIO GRAINS HAVE PESTICIDES REGARDLESS OF OTHERS SAYING THEY DON’T.
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ONLY I CAN MAKE THE STRUCTURED DECISION HERE, WHICH I WANT TO GET GOING NOW.

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The 42 day juice fast looks like it did wonders but also debilitated me, so after I eat some meat in my diet to get to get the necessary nutrients she desired for me.
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Alternative therapist went away for vacation so on my own.

I want now to write out a diet structure I do every day religiously even though i can vary from it. This is my next intervention.
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We have the health food store with high prices but arrangement being made to take still good older vegetables on Saturday afternoon and make veggie smoothly.
—Sometimes I have a near starving feeling with burping and so eat the sushi from the story, which helps.
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Issue: how much an eating binge is due to my cancer acting up with burping and soreness in the throat? How much will the new male doctor intervention medications? I try and call him today.
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Will contact new home doctor on current medication and these symptoms today.
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Should I have more of the same medication? What is going on that I have burping and sore throat sometimes? What about the sleep pattern of waking after a couple of hours only. What do the medications do? How to assure me that my cancer symptoms are not getting worse and what is caused by them?

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Just got the moving money, some of which I choose to use to buy the homeopathic treatments as another direct intervention into the cancer condition.
—as a stage three lung cancer patient refusing radiation and chemo therapy I am not supposed to live that long now. From diagnosis April 1, 2009 the living time is now is 4.5 months. Web statistics say that a number of lung cancer people are dead by six months. I am pretty much alive and functioning independently.

—Strephon current symptoms: need sleeping pill or vibrating and can’t sleep. Take the DEX 1.5 with stomach protector pill and one pain killer that lasts all day so I do not have the caved in feeling and panic attacks that I am going into dying, or so that I cannot work at everyday chores and socialize. I feel weaker than I used to, and is this just old age, like quitting tennis at age 75 as too vigorous and no longer skilled enough for my level of play. Working on positive and vital spirit in an emotional breakthrough this past week. Feel though woozy sometimes, though not nauseous. Sudden fall asleeps at the computer or on the toilet, sometimes without taking the sleeping pill first. Sore throat lately with burping. What causes the burping and can it be controlled?

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Should I be taking a strong dose of the DEX, or is this too strong an intervention?
—My perspective I desire for myself is good control of symptoms which the doctors are doing fine with. I can do a lot of daily chores though sometimes I walk slowly and feel like unbalanced and move a bit sideways in walking somewhere. Not always associated with immediate taking pills.
—I am more determined, even with a little anger, to live my full vital self developed over the years. I consider this very good.
—I did some social meetings with friends of 1.5 hours recently and got a lift from them plus a need then to be quiet and recuperate. I am a dynamic teacher-talker when I get going.
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Have yet to get the couple of hundred euros of homeopathic remedies and things like the right calcium to take because did not have the money. Now have the money and go in Friday, two days from now. The remedies, says Anne-,Marie on vacation until September, are meant hopefully as interventions to control the cancer enough so I don’t need medications for pain, phlegm, coughing or cancer growing.
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The biggest intervention needed is to stop the cancer in its tracks but without spending the money I don’t have on such tenuous treatments. Being poor I cannot waste money and have read enough to know that expensive travel treatment could be a total waste of time and energy.

—Getting soon a best seller doctor’s book on his own control of his cancer and the nutrition and stuff he used to control cancer. Looks good because he is a well-trained scientist as well.
—Thus I have choices to make to create an of eating, lifestyle and remedies that are the best interventions I can come up with to stop this lung cancer, and its dying process on realistic terms. If the body has the right diet and enhancement of the immune system then logically my lung cancer should end or go into remission and not grow or spread.
- My own biggest intervention is the psychological exploration into consciousness, that like I do here.
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At the spiritual level my behavior is to put in the time and best efforts to describe what I am going through and to regulate other activity of my life, such as writing and everyday routine and even doing more socializing. Plus gratefulness prayers and recalling the positives in the day, like getting the new turbo oven to better cook fish and veggies together so as to have a healthy meal without frying in pan oils and boiling, and all that extra work. Thus moving money is used not only for moving and the new furniture and appliances required but to pay for a high level of supplements and the right foods to use, yet without breaking the bank. Medication medications are paid for my insurance but not much alternative treatments.

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Parts of this to be discussed today with new doctor to make sure he thinks medications still right for me, or can improvements be made. Other question, are my cancer symptoms getting worse? Other question, since I move in a couple of weeks who is my new home doctor clinic that I have to go to at the new address?

——BIG CURRENT POSITIVES SUMMARY——

—current control by regular doctor of my terrible symptoms of coughing and phlegm
—intervention now to get a good routine diet that is supper healthy for me
—intervention alternative alternative remedies to start taking soon.
—huge positive emotional breakthrough to live my positive vital self built up over the years and to counter completely the negative and old age self that I imposed on myself and some doctors and friends were imposing on me.
—the research and discovery that made me make a judgment that the specialist doctors were wrong to give me radiation and chemo treatments when the outcome was so limited of five to ten percent surviving, plus emotionally categorizing me as a weak, sick cancer patient. Very bad to do this to me psychologically, I realized, and there is the Stanford social psychology to back me up on this, called the identified patient.
— the recent starting researching and writing the revised Jesus novel every day I don’t have a bad day symptom-wise or don’t have time because I take time like this to process my own stuff and to do everyday routines, like associated with moving to the new apartment.
—moving to the new apartment represents better quality living and also no drafts and so more healthy, if I can adjust living on the third floor with all the ladies over seventy.
—having more of a social life on friend contacts, like with Mark, Jan, Jacqueline, visits of former friends and students.
—-and especially writing the revised Jesus novel almost every day and having the right ideas now to possibly write a damn good novel on the subject I most love and have been preparing for. This project gives me a daily creative output for my enormous life force intelligence. Even therapeutically I must express the life force fully or start dying for sure.
—-the attitude towards dying I have not is yes it is possible, not lifestyle changes will work or not be the right ones. But meanwhile I rely on my helper team and live a positive vital spirit. Whether I get the full year I need probably to complete the new Jesus now is only partly up to me and not predictable. But at least right now I am in full active and committed flow with the Jesus novel.
—moving to the new apartment, which Stefania and friends largely handle is a real plus because I can’t do direct work but can support with interest, talk, some suggestions and driving Stefania back and forth.

THIS IS THE CURRENT REPORT TO BE SEEN AS A RECORD OF HOW IT IS ALL WORKING FOR ME CURRENTLY.

I was up at 2:30 AM and now it is 4:30 AM, so two hours, but not a waste of time since I am committed to put more focus on my immediate and existential self. Not sleepy yet again.

And this remains a resource blog for others going through similar crisis of having a strong disease to deal with if they want one man’s consciousness approach.

—Yes, to say it clearly. I have been many times in tune with a guiding force not my ego that throws insights and interventions my way, putting me in the right way and place for achieving purpose in my life. This is synchronicity, the direct evidence for a God-force at work in our lives is we are committed to following such a source. My hope is that I do all I can with my personal ego but that I open myself and reach out to having the synchronicity at work in my life causing things to happen like the cancer going into remission, who knows ultimately why? Or other purposeful things happening as well.

One synchronicity is that the rental agency has to give Stefania and I moving moving, as is the policy in the Netherlands. Some of this gives us decent furniture at last and some of this I can spend on my medical remedies not covered by the insurance we pay for each month. In addition we get some appliances that aid health, like the new refrigerator with the real freezer to keep frozen fish in for a ready meal.

IF YOU READ THIS THROUGH YOU MIGHT REALIZE ALSO TO COMMIT TO FOLLOWING YOUR OWN INTUITIONS AND EGO OPENNESS TO IN FACT MAYBE EVOKE THE SYNCHRONICITY FORCE THAT DOES THINGS TO US TO ENHANCE LIVING A SIGNIFICANT CURRENT PURPOSE IN YOUR LIVES.

Of course I know many cases wherein synchronicity also destroys people, like in accidents or have kept refusing their destiny, in a so called shock therapy. Maybe it has at first been shock therapy for me in that I was bloated and compulsive in my eating habits and all together too mental. Now I seek balance in each day.

Enough said for now!

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