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Another Crisis Can’t Sleep Need For Healing Practices

• The issue is how to deal with symptoms successfully.

Strange state to not be able to sleep. Uncomfortable in the chest where the tumor is. The DEX medication is low dose but maybe part of the uncomfortableness, almost pain.

Trying out meditative Tibetan chant for the first time using repeat music. Up at the computer writing out this experience. Partner needs sleep also. Difficult night, to say the least.

• I am working with trying to accept the uncomfortable chest sensation and the inability to sleep.

Was earlier going into a panic attack. Needed contact, a massage of the back and shoulder area to relieve vibrating tension in shoulder and arm, plus the uncomfortable chest.

Panic attack is like losing control, which I mostly am, of course since these symptoms are big.

There is positive letting go, but there is also losing control that evokes terror for me, anxiety thoughts about what could happen rather than just stick to what is happening.

What if it gets worse? is the anxiety question. What do I have to let go of then? Call the ambulance? Sedate me? Alternative practitioner on vacation. Regular two doctors on vacation. So these new cultivated support relations not available, though a backup doctor service can be called, or phone consultation.

Try to see a home doctor in the morning about the inability to sleep problem, and also medication to lessen the uncomfortable chest feeling.

• Spiritual working with attitude, the two healing prayers and value-attitudes built into these prayers.

I’m unbalanced in I just want to work as much as possible on the revision of the novel just started and exciting but challenging to work with, huge mental effort required.

Terrifying to not get the novel done before I die. but then this is an ego push contra to what I try to practice – having guidance and direction come from Greater Source.

• Let it go, Strephon. Spend more time on your own mental-spiritual process. Get a good massage or treatment tomorrow. More healing for the body.

• Stefania just gave me the Tibetan chant music she put on her phone so don’t have to use the hi-fi in the bedroom and she can use the bed to sleep. Good for her! A solution. I love solutions.

I used to use music for healing, like the Bach cello solos played by Casals. These have helped me in the past center again, get me outside myself and my troubles. It worked a little tonight but moved to the present Tibetan chant.

• Now try to include healing music sessions in my day and night.

It’s hard to want to spend a lot of time just experiencing oneself when one has cancer. Yet this is where I need to be more, but maybe yes structured with healing music to help balance me as I process my sensations and try to get to balanced perspectives on my little and big issues.

Bob Silverstein gave me a perspective to open myself to. I have myself operated as a nitty-gritty realist for years. Bob’s perspective he practices and used with his own cancer is quoted here. ‘As the Sufis say:  “Trust in God and tie your camel.”

We both know that nothing happens by chance, so remember to embrace the moment as an opportunity to reach an even higher state of consciousness.  It’s your turn to burn away the dross in the crucible of your life’s experience.   When seen rightly it’s all good and necessary. So embrace the gift and dance with it!

Warmly,
Bob ‘

Here also from Bob: ‘Blessings Strephon – I like the simplicity and repetition of your poem.  Let the words flow through your body like liquid honey, bringing healing light and energy into every atom, cell and molecule.    We are all matter in flux and loving vibrations have the power to make us whole again.  Affirm it, visualize it, live it!’

This is a teaching, a perspective, to practice!

• So I have to limit my burning passion to do the novel again and use more energy for myself, as I have been saying. Yet, it seems boring to be so into myself.

Maybe this is a key, part of the metaphor, for me right now?

Key Metaphor Developing

I am creating, trying to create the tree from the sky down, but neglecting having strong roots to grow upward?

Of course ultimate inspiration comes from the transcendent into the immanent, as described in the Jesus baptism experience.

Jesus took John’s baptism but did not have the experience John preached would be happening. Jesus experienced the transcendent experience becoming immanent in his body and soul. Jesus struggled with what this experience was for him. He made it conscious and gave it a role to manifest in life.

• So, I in my writing and teaching have drawn the inspiration from the transcendent counterbalanced by the nitty-gritty experience of directly working with people on their dreams and psychological and spiritual problems.

The combination was effective and grounded. However, I don’t work with people anymore, and partner has learned from me but now achieving independence. I have a lot of transcendence going. My ideas and insights seem to never have been better. But where are the roots, the grounding, so I am not destroying myself?

Ah, I seem to be getting to the dominant metaphor happening now in me and my life.

• There must be balance and integration focused on so these can be active in a wholeness process.

The music recorded on Stefania’s phone really helpful right now. I appreciate the gift. She gets her needs met also to sleep by getting me out of the bedroom and the hi-fi there. Plus she is a trained violinist from childhood and a deeply perceptive and inner person. Uses music a lot herself. She knows intuitively about core music and inner workings.

Need For Whole Treatments

This I have known for years and found wholelistic health practitioners are not achieving. They should be doing a wholeness treatment, as being described here. The herbs and remedies, yes, the healing massage, yes, developing right perspective, yes, dreamwork if possible, relating, insights, perspective, practice.

• But all the essentials together integratively.

This is also what I call the core metaphor. That which brings all the processes together through the right dominant metaphor and archetype manifesting.

The healing is in the wholeness.

• Anyone wanting to send healing music they find works for them and might help me, please send, or titles and where and how to download?

Thanks

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