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Dream Nightmare Physical Struggle

It’s 7AM. I went to bed at 12 with my partner. For me I slept a long time. Up twice to pee. A deep groggy sleep.

But then I was engaged in a terrific fight with fear and being active, struggling. I don’t remember the specifics, except that it was very physical and expressive. At one point I remember my Stefania extending her hand and I took it, remembering to be gentle. Who knows what else she did to assist me. It turns out that Stefania was not awake in helping me.

We had talked before about not waking me when I am in the midst of a nightmare. Let me have my nightmare. Do what you feel for also. As my bed partner you are in my psychic aura but don’t impose ego fears or control onto what I am experiencing. If I am going through hell I am going through hell and need to go through hell, because this is what the dream source wants.

So I woke this morning realizing that physically I had been through hell. The tail end of the dream seemed to be that I was visiting in the city, staying with my ex wife Helen and some woman was coming over she wanted me to meet. Also, another friend was expecting me for dinner at her place where she had friends to meet also. It seemed like since I was single they people wanted me to meet their single friends to see if we hit it off together. Now I was faced with having to get up and somehow spend time at both dinners, as well as walk to the other apartment, and how to do that in this new city to me.

Also Helen had brought home a wooden stake with an address on it and put it on the desk in my room and left to do dinner. I handed it back to her through the door. It had dirt on it, earth. Then I woke up.

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For me dreaming should be physical as well as mental. My way of healing with people often involved physical processes that took them into their bodies and their emotional-physical edges. They had to have complete confidence in me. I had complete confidence in myself because I was not doing anything from ego control or inflation that I knew about. I was evoking their own core process, as well as having my own core processes evoked.

I saw this also in England where I was called upon to do psychological exorcism because of their strong occult tradition there. They woman had severe cancer symptoms and voices. I had to get right in their with her voices, but had her close friend along for the journey also.

Let me tell you that was physical and seemed to relapse the cancer and made her normal again.

There are not many professionally trained therapists who would enter this deep level of involvement for fear of what it would do to them. They keep a rational distance instead of giving themselves to the process.

Thus for this therapist, me, who is there to help me go into my unconscious without raping it? Thus, having no one at the moment I have to let go in sleep and deal with my demons by experiencing them directly in nightmares when they come.

  • The healing principle is to go through ones dark side to healing, at whatever age. This is a life and death matter because the Life Force flows in the channel between ones opposites.

But how would you understand any of this?

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  • Arthur B. Treadway said:

    Dear Strephon,

    Thanks for this one. Having an agreement with your partner not to wake you up when you are visiting Hell in dreams is new to me, but it makes a lot of sense and I intend to request a similar agreement myself.

    How do I understand any of this?

    I recall that Gerald Heard once told me that going to Hell was necessary for going to Heaven and that often the level of Heaven one reached depended on the depth of the Hell one had just experienced. I think he was talking about experiences under LSD at the time, but I also think these notions are applicable both to dreams and to waking life. Certainly, both in experiences with certain substances, in dreams sometimes and often in waking life, I have recalled what he told me and it has helped me go on through whatever hell I was in. I guess that, without these notions, I would have put up more resistance to visits to hell, possibly wasting more energy, but they have allowed me to both go there and sweat and bleed and fight and suffer, but with some kind of basic acceptance and serenity even, a kind of feeling like “This is Hell and right now it seems unbearable. But all things pass, including this. So face up to it, go on with it, as long as necessary, to the very end.” So what you say in this blog entry rings true to me.

    Your previous “dream interpretation” blog entry was about a great visit to heaven, which I enjoyed and was glad you had. Your last “Strephon’s Cancer” blog entry, headed “Death”, was about a horrendous waking hell experience. So maybe there’s a kind of rhythm in all this, even possibly a sacred rhythm.

    Thanks for all of these blogs of yours, dear friend,
    Arthur

    # 15 May 2009 at 11:32 AM
  • Strephon (author) said:

    Yes, Arthur, I am glad to see you mention the philosopher-writer Gerald Heard. I went to his lectures and received inspiration in his perspective on existence. The mark of a true philosopher is that they talk not about life but about existence itself. As young adults we needed a philosophy. Mine from that period has never left me. However, I had to add Jungian dreamwork psychology to get me and my psyche more grounded, more healed. It worked for me … I am grateful this end of life as well. If all you have is your body and not a philosophy, what have you?

    # 16 May 2009 at 5:42 AM

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