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Dream Samurai Sword Blade

Woke early at 6 AM just as the dawn was showing its first light, that time before the rising sun is seen.

Another day …

That’s all …

What lesson will my dream bring me today?

I dreamed I was seeking and had found a sponsor to support my returning to live in Berkeley, California, where my dreamwork institute had been.

I thought in my mind about how I could work with people again at my age, charging the going rates of $200 a session, and taking five sessions a week, plus doing one seminar evening a week at $50 a person at someone’s big house.

Now in the dream I am walking around Berkeley getting oriented again. Where are the food shops and little restaurants, the culture shops as well?

I see an unusual tool shop and go in. They are a group of knife makers and polishers. I look to see if they have any Samurai swords up close that they may be polishing.

There is one with a wild design on its blade and I want to see it closer. But a young man is also looking at it and trying to get the attention of a counter person, so I have to be patient and obtain only glimpses of it since he is holding the blade. I wonder that he uses his fingers on the blade, which can cause rust to the steel and thus damage the wavy design on the blade itself.

I seem to wake up before I get a chance to inspect the blade, though I know I cannot afford such a blade myself, and what would I do with it but admire it as a special symbolic piece for my life stage now.

But first youth is before me. I must wait to see what he does, or whom the sword presently belongs to.

COMMENT

Of course one of the goals of the present dreamwork is to record current dreams and do dreamwork. Surely my dream source knows something about my condition, maybe more than I consciously do.

• Or is the goal not knowledge but a teaching?

• If we try and make our dreams give us knowledge about ourselves is that not personalizing the dream and trying to control it?

When we do this are we not imposing ego desire and control onto the dream itself. This is a ‘worst fallacy’ I have seen and read that people in IASD do. It’s kind of alarming really. This is why you will find so-called dream teachers doing Shamanistic drumming or imposing some system like having dream group members do rituals with a member’s dream, or say the unintelligent thing, ‘if this were my dream …’

It’s mind-weakening to say the above because one, it is not your dream, and two, by talking about someone else’s dream you project into the dream and make it your subjective experience.

• But anyway. Am I not projecting into my dream, also?

Beware the ego that wants a good outcome from doing dreamwork.

Almost no one knows about objectifying the dream, seeing the dream and its dynamics in themselves regardless of whose dream it is.

Yeah, yeah …!

• So why should I seek to record my dreams if I am dying?

Why not see me as a dream expert having worked with hundreds of people in depth over time and so someone who has a certain knowledge of the issues and what value dreams can be when worked with?

To the dream …

I live in The Netherlands and not California anymore. I do have a desire to return to California but it would cost me $100,000 to re-establish and live simply, and yes, see some dreamwork students without working too hard, which I can’t do.

So there is no possibility of moving without such a large support coming forward.

The reality is to accept where I am and live with it, which is living on minimal income with my partner here in the Netherlands, land of social services and accompanying high taxes twice the rate as in America, and they complain there, my Gott!

In the dream I can’t get to the Samurai sword because the young man got there first. Maybe he wants it? I can only look at it. The design on the blade is maybe too wild for my taste, evoking too much energy. Who can handle all that energy, though I have been a high energy person myself, and still am somewhat.

One can not go back in life, yet here I am trying to go back, not to the past, but to what is presently happening.

The thing with old Japanese swords is that they are often hundreds of years old. They were weapons in their day that killed people. They they were stashed in temples, the organizations that survived the best through time.

So the sword is dead men’s work. But that sword is the only thing that exists now created by the sword maker, except descendants, which is something.

My fixation in time. What is there left to create, and how much time to do it in before I myself cease existence?

Now of course what I create from this point on has the ring of my own death and limitation in existence.

At the same time I want to finish certain books I also have less energy and must devote more energy to my own health processes.

A reminder to focus on what I am creating now.

An old friend from ‘young days’ has recontacted me and expressed what his thoughts are about my process but also his own. It was a good sharing and shows our mutual bond.

So we are making conscious the process.

Samurai swords must work over and over again to settle disputes, though some used them to create conflict and seek domination and power.

My big dream in the important transition point of my life at age 56 of moving to live and teach in Europe, and to create The Dream Cards, was after a big dream in which I submitted to the Samurai sword master and received an unsheathed Samurai sword in a Japanese ceremony. My ex wife had resisted them and was taken away. I submitted completely to the destiny afforded me and the Dream Cards and other major dreamwork things, as well as a personal life, came into being.

Now I get only glimpses …

It is enough.

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